Today I turn 23!
This year I’m turning 23 on the 23rd – or as some call it my “champagne” birthday. Even though I still feel that 23 is very young, I feel like my life experiences have grated me a mental age of at least 10 years wiser than physically.
How am I going to celebrate you might ask? Spending it with my very best friend exploring British Columbia is the plan!
You thought I was going to say get dressed up, make friends go downtown, drink my face off and eat cake – didn’t you? I think that all too often we find ourselves caring far too much about what other people think. Birthdays are hyped up so much to be a day where friends and families are “required” to celebrate and buy you gifts, yadda, yadda – but in actuality, it is just another day and I do not expect special treatment. I honestly just want to enjoy the people I’m with and the things I’m doing. So what if I don’t want to plan out my day and invite every friend I can think of? That’s not what I want. I don’t want to make friends and family feel obligated to do anything for me that they don’t want to do.
When it comes down to it, I’m tired of always feeling the pressure of living a life filled with expectations. Sometimes I feel, just like holidays, birthdays bring certain overwhelming expectations. But when it comes down to it, whose expectations are they and why do I feel so pressured to make them happen in order to “have a good birthday?” I don’t like how other people have the ability to impose on how people act or feel based on silly meaningless expectations. I’m not trying to impress anyone or be someone I’m not – it’s too exhausting. I want to be me. No one should live a life of expectation 24/7 just because they think they need to.
Basically, I’m not a fan of expectations.
Instead of seeing this day as a day to “party”, I see it as a day to celebrate and appreciate people and experiences. I want to take time to appreciate the people who have influenced the person I am today and appreciate the experiences that have brought the most joy into my life. Someone once asked me what really made me tick? If I had the ability to do anything in my power at this exact moment, what would I choose to spend my time doing?
My response: Sunshine, driving and coffee.
In this 24th year of my life, I plan on loving the person I am and believing in the abilities that I have in order to accomplish my goals. I’m going to put myself out there, push boundaries, ask questions, learn new things, meet amazing people who will help me achieve these feats… all while not sacrificing my own personal beliefs.
Am I going to screw up? Probably. Am I going to learn from the mistakes I’ve made and move on ? Definitely. I know that some days are going to be good and some are going to be bad. But I also know that a lot are going to be great. This year is going to be my year of amazing goal accomplishments – I can feel it.
I’m excited for a new year of experiences, joy and accomplishment – because really what other point is there to life? It’s time for a new chapter to finally begin, and I’ll be damned if I’m not going to make the very best of it.
My ultimate goals this year:
Happy Easter weekend everyone!